So Tired of Someday..

I try my best to live in the present, but it sucks so much that the only thing that seems to keep me going is the hope of someday. I just have to get through today first. Let me assure you with so many asinine people I have to put up with and all the asinine things that they do...today is a real challenge. Here are a few somedays I strive for to get through 2008.

Someday...

...I'll have a space of my own.
...I'll be treated as an equal.
...I won't be used.
...I will be judged on today and not my past.
...People will be consistant.
...I won't be torn down for the benefit of others.
...Someone will understand me.
...Someone will love me and treat me the way I deserve to be treated.

Here's to a someday that's not today, but I pray that someday will come soon. Later might be to late. Oh someday, what a glorious day that will be.

Whatever your someday is for. Know that today will be so worth it until someday comes.

An Expression Defined

Here is the video of a dance from the FOX show So You Think You Can Dance. I never saw it while it was on the air, but some reruns were on and I absolutely loved some of the pieces I saw. Of course like any other red blood American I you tubed some of my favorite pieces. I found the Mia Michaels pieces were the best ones, because they were so moving. The "Sunflower and Bench Dance" seemed to speak to me.

I have no idea what message Mia intended to convey, but the one I got couldn't have hit me harder if you had thrown that bench at me. I'll let you watch it first, and then I'll explain.


What did I tell you. I was right wasn't I? Powerful and moving. Love is something that is so beautiful and simple, like the sunflower. It commands attention even from just a glance, yet it's so delicate you're choosy about who you share it with.

My interpretation of this piece is that the girl wants to share her love with someone who doesn't care about her. He's always off doing his own thing knowing that she'll be right there if he should need her (on the bench). When they touch hands through the bench and he pulls her out it shows that he some what cared but not really.

When she jumps in his arms as a last attempt forgetting about her flower (love) a piece of my heart broke because he caught only so she wouldn't fall. Through out the piece she tries to help him from stumbling, but he doesn't seem to care or appreciate her. Her gestures are fulled with the hope, kindness, and love. He just doesn't want to be bothered with her.It's like he's just putting up with her because he has to. The one time he touches the flower is when he gives it back to her for good. When he walks away after making her think he's going to take it....that's such a sad but true message.

What is it about sunflowers? Why is it so hard for us to take them?